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A small miracle…

May 30, 2010 1 comment

Today is the fateful day that my dad was supposed to unplug from the life support system that aid him to breath…

The doc already told us to prepare for the worst that when the machine is unplug from him, he will be likely to stop breathing on his own since he only breath 10% -20% most of the time… because of the nature of his stroke that affected his breathing and his ability to wake up. The most catastrophic stroke of all, the brainstem is affected.

Jac and I went earlier than the appointed time… we wanted to share to dad how much Jesus loves him… the night before I preloaded some video from youtube for dad though he couldn’t response but we believed he can still hear us.

I shared with him about how God loves him… Jac shared with him Ps 23:4 that God will comfort him and take care of him…

Though the road is tough, we want him to know that Jesus will carry him through this journey… we believed that Jesus loves him deeply…

God was very gd to us… our relatives were not there at that point of time when we shared everything to him so we had a gd 15mins without disruption…

The time came at 11am when the doc had to unplug the life support system… we were away for 5mins when the doc and nurses did all the procedure…

When they called us back, dad was struggling with his breathing, heartbeat was irregular, blood pressure was low as well… the whole scene was very emotional… we were already prepared to let him go…

Few hrs later, dad was still struggling… when it was lunch time… some of the relatives, my mom, sister and brother in law decided to go for a quick bite.

Jac and I stayed behind just in case anything sudden happened… we continue to talk to dad… we thanked him for bringing us up, thanked him for him for his love for family, his selflessness, thanked him for making the pageboy cart, ice cream cart… that very the moment, when we witnessed that dad actually tried very hard to get up from his bed though his eyes were closed, his facial expression also showed that he could hear us… we were shocked but in my heart I was praying that he will open his eyes and talk to us… after abt 1 min, he leaned back to his resting position… we continued to talked to him… nothing really happened after that.

When the relatives and family members returned, we related what had happened earlier to them…

Few hrs later, Jac went and asked nurses what does all the readings in the monitor means… the nurse looked at the reading and told us that dad’s BP is abnormal. Likelihood, he will pass on in few hrs time.

My heart was saddened… but I do hope for a miracle. Mum was tired and requested that I sent her home and bring her back after she napped.

When I reached home, I called Jac and she told me that my dad’s BP had improved… his breathing was more regular. I was surprised but thankful for it… I prayed that God will heal him and give his normal BP and wake up to testify that he met God.

I returned to hospital after mom had her nap… when I was there… dad’s BP was 120/50, it was rather normal… another miracle had happened… Praise God.

I am still praying that God will heal my dad’s affected brain stem completely so that he can wake up… and speak of God’s goodness to everyone.

When we left at 8plus, dad’s condition was still quite stable… I am praying it will remain as it is… so that I can talk to the doc tmr and ask what is the next step since he is still breathing normally and his BP is normal.

I am praying for a miracle… pls continue to pray alongside with us for our dad.

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I need a miracle

May 21, 2010 Leave a comment

I am at my lowest point right now… Docs did all e tests, scans, etc. The latest fluid from e brain doesn’t show why dad is not waking up.

My moral is at this stage low and lost.

I need a miracle.

There are still alot of things I have not done together with u. We have yet create all e good memories together.

Dad, you have yet to impart ur cooking skill to me. I need u to wake up… Dun sleep anymore.

Pls wake up and go home with us.

Lord, I need ur help… Pls grant dad e strength and power to wake up and his lungs to function normally so that he does not need to rely on e machine to breath.

Lord, if by taken away 10 yrs of my lifespan and give it to my dad… I am willing. I rather spend 10 yrs with him than spend 10 yrs without him… Pls Lord, I plead to u… Help my dad to wake up… 

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Prayer requests

May 18, 2010 Leave a comment

Dad went into ICU today…

I was shocked beyond belief…
He was transferred from high dependency ward to normal ward only yesterday night.

This afternoon he was rushed to be transferred to ICU.

They discovered that he was not breathing properly on his own… He ran a risk that his organs might malfunction if not enough oxygen is supplied to them. They had to put in a pipe to supply him oxygen…

Dad bled again in his stool… They had transfused blood to him if not they run a risk of blood pressure dropped.

Pls pray that dad:
1. Will stop bleeding so that they will not continue to transfuse blood to him
2. That e source of bleeding is from e existing 3 ulcers and not a new one.
3. The sample tissue they took for testing is not canerous.
4. His body and mind will be strong to stay alive.
5. His salvation.

Thank you so much…

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May 13, 2010 Leave a comment

Waiting for things to happen has never been my forte… I dislike to wait for results.

I would rather go straight to e pt and get things done.

This period made me felt helpless because I cannot do anything to speed up the process… I can only wait and wait…

Like e Palmist wrote… “Where does my help come from, my help comes from God.”

I am reminded that my help comes from God. He has a greater purpose of why things happen in this manner.

Do I go ard blaming God for this… Of cos not! Do we expect all gd things and not bad things… I think we will be very childish to think this way…

We live in a fallen world that was already corrupted when sin entered into our world. It started when e 1st Man & Woman decided to disobey God and eat the fruit from e tree. The moment the act was done… Sickness, decay, pain, death had already penetrated into our world.

What dad is going thru was e act that was committed thousands of yrs back…

Right now, I am asking God to pardon him from this misery and recover soon. I am asking God to give him a chance to know this almighty God. I am asking for salvation for him so that one day he will have a perfect body without pain and suffering. He will enjoy the fullest of God’s love and grace in hid life.

Pls pray alongside wif me for my dad.

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One of the toughest period…

May 12, 2010 2 comments

This is one of the toughest period of my life…

Just when I thought dad is going to be discharged from the hospital… he went thru another tough ordeal… I just stood there, feeling helpless when the Docs and nurses were trying to stabilize his condition…

I could only pray that the docs and nurses had the wisdom to know how to help him and stabilize him… I think dad was rather shocked when we were allowed to speak to him…

Dad is being transferred to the high dependency ward to be monitor for 24 hrs. He is still not out of danger yet… and I pray that God’s sovereign hands will be upon him to heal him completely and give him the peace and strength to fight through this battle…

Pls continue to pray for dad… 😦

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